Insanity

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
Cause here we are
Back where we were before
Seems nothin' ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we ought to stay
Or head on out the door

Just once...

Can't we figure out what we keep doin' wrong
Why we never last for very long
What are we doin' wrong

Just once...

Can't we find a way to finally make it right
To make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
(Hmm hmmmm)

I was looking up a definition of the word "insanity" and couldn't find the best definition I've ever heard - "to do something over and over again expecting a different result". I am starting to wonder if I am indeed insane. Why, you ask? Well, I think I might be insane because I am a victim of instant gratification. Maybe we all are insane to an extent. Hopefully my case isn't as bad since I have been able to recognize what's going on.

I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
Cause Lord knows we're not gettin' anywhere
Seems we're always blowin'
Whatever we've got goin'
And it seems at times with all we've got
We haven't got a prayer

Just once...

Can't we figure out what we keep doin' wrong
Why the good times never last for long
Where are we goin' wrong

Just once...

Can't we find a way to finally make it right
To make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we could break through it
If we could just get to it

(Bridge)
Just once
I want to understand.....
Why it always comes back to goodbye
Why
Can't we get ourselves in hand
And admit to one another
We're no good without each other
Take the best and make it better
Find a way to stay together

Just once.....

"Just Once" - Quincy Jones featuring James Ingram

What exactly is your best? If you have given your best to everything you do in life and you still aren't getting where you think you should be, then what does that mean? Isn't there some reserve tank we all sit aside and reserve for that special moment? Why are we saving it? What purpose does it serve besides to remind yourself that you could have done more - especially when you didn't get the desired result. Does that make you insane?

The one constant in life is change. For the good, for the bad, whether we like it or not, things are going to change. How we react to that change is what defines our lives and our legacy in the world. I am sure that I could have made better decisions in my past when those moments of change have come my way, but since I am still here to talk about it, those decisions must not have been that bad. To not embrace change is truly insane.

Just once, I wish that my best was truly everything I have in the tank, and when the time comes to use it, my best will be welcomed with open arms and I won't allow my insanity to take over and hold me back from those goals in life that I am truly ready to move on to.