Tuesday, December 14, 2010

You Learn

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

"You Learn" - Alanis Morrisette

Well, 2010 is thankfully coming to a close. If I never have a year like this ever again it will be too soon. At this point, it's time to cut my losses, remain silent, move the f#$k on, and let my life speak for itself as a friend of mine so eloquently put it. So as we move into another year, I reflect for the last time (publicly at least) about what will go down as one of the biggest years of my life. One in which I have truly learned a lot about myself, about people around me, and about life itself.

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

Caring what others think about me has led me to doing a lot of biting off more than I can chew... trying to make sure other people are happy is the fastest way to making yourself unhappy. For the record, that perceived "happiness" as determined by the media, our friends, and our material desires is 100% bullshit. Happiness is what you make it - how you live your life and treat others around you will determine your happiness. If you want to be happy, making others around you miserable is definitely the wrong way to achieve that goal. I was walking through the Minneapolis skyway this week and came across a sign that read, "Happiness is a how, not a what. A talent, not an object." I literally sat in front of the window with this sign and read it at least 10 times. Partially because it was my next tweet, but otherwise because I was blown away by the knowledge in that statement. We spend our lives going on about how we're not happy about this and that, and blaming others for our condition, when it's our own fault for not being happy. At the end of the day, no one else can control your happiness but YOU. I can do nothing but get up and do what I need to do that day. If you're not happy with that, it doesn't change the fact that I still need to do what I need to do that day.

Sooo, as I live and learn... letting loose a lot more is definitely on the menu. 2011 is going to start off with the arrival of my nephew to this world, and he will soon find out how off the chain his uncle truly is! My opinion will not be silenced - and I no longer care what you think. Consider yourself warned.

Since it doesn't look like I'm going to get the Christmas cards out in time, consider this your Seasons Greetings - Please have a safe ending to 2010 and I look forward to seeing all of you on the other side! Thanks for reading and putting up with my ish this year!